Friday, February 22, 2013

the climb

I'm working on my 40 bags in 40 days.
Dancing like a fool around my house with my ipod on.
This song just came on.
My twins made a bit of fun of me when they saw me struggling putting it on my ipod.
{Remember how it took me 3 days recently to figure out how to transfer music
from my old ipod to a new ipod on a new computer without losing my music
like the computer kept warning me would happen?
Yeah, I'm over 40 but I will not be defeated by technology
I googled and found a youtube video explaining how to do it.
The tutorial on youtube was made by a guy all of 13 years old.
Perspective.
Now you have it.

Back to the song...
so this song comes on today and every time I hear it
whether on my ipod or the car radio I cry.
No, not the ugly cry again.
I cry thinking about how it took me so long to find inner strength
and to believe in myself enough to not let my life be limited by things that scare me.
I cry because I know there's nothing I can't do.
If I want to do it.
I'll always find a way.

Tomorrow we're running another practice half marathon tomorrow.
I know. Its sounds crazy but we practice.
Repeatedly.
You have to prepare your body and your mind.
Every time I run over 10 miles I have what I affectionately call
a "come to Jesus" talk inside my head
{this may surprise my running peeps because
they say I'm always talking and telling stories
 but the times when I'm quiet watch out because
I'm inside my head and there's wicked banter going on. ha!}
So right around 10 miles I'm hurting and I want to quit.
But so far, knock wood, I've pushed through.
Because if you know anything about me its that I refuse to quit.
Especially when someone tells me I can't do something.
Even my own self.
Southern steel magnolia baby.
Until mile 10. ha!
When I feel like I want to quit and I start having my inner dialogue
I think about "The Climb."
I hum the tune, think about the words, and I keep going.
One foot in front of the other.
Keep falling forward.

So today I'm googling stuff and I totally stumble on this blog.
She had me at the navy imperial trellis header with the green border.
This girl rocks for so many reasons and I say that because
once I stumbled on her blog I couldn't stop reading.
I was late dropping off my youngest at preschool because of it.
She's in her 20's
with a new baby.
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And she's fighting a battle right now with breast cancer.
Today as I listened this song made me think of her.

Here are the lyrics...

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I, I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin',
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, 'cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah, yeah

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

I dont know why but today the song was about her.
We're all fighting battles
some inside our heads,
some inside our bodies.
Just remember to keep moving, keep climbing, but most of all keep the faith.
Reading her blog today reminded me that I need to do monthly self breast exams.
You do too.

We got the good news this week that my husband's brother is officially in remission.
I hope and pray that Sarah Elizabeth gets her good news soon.

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