Friday, May 31, 2013

how I'm rolling

I think it started when I hit 40...
I started to let go
of a lot of baggage
that I carried with me
in all shapes and sizes.
It took me forever to stop trying to please other people.
Now don't get me wrong...
I love to make people happy
and do nice things for people.
I just stopped being a doormat...
like when you agree to do something
that you really don't want to
or that maybe isn't good for you
for fear
the other person will be mad
if you don't do whatever they're asking of you.
That kind of mess.
I let go of relationships,
romantic and not,
that weren't good for me.
I'm not proud of how I severed some of those.
But I know that I did it to save myself.
I gained a lot of weight in my twenties.
Not sure if I ever said that here before
but I weighed
at least fifty+ pounds more than I do now.
It hurts me to think about that now.
The extra fat was like a big blanket of protection in a way.
When I let go of people that weren't good for me
that weight
just fell off.
Like a scab.
{stress might have had a little something to do with it too}
My that was a great decade.
I met my husband,
got married,
had a few babies.
I make it sound so simple.
Like it all came so easy.
It was anything but.
But it was
{and worth every bad frog in the dating pond of life 
that I ever encountered I might add.}
So now I'm approaching the mid-40's...
and honestly, well, I don't know.
I love it in a way
and it scares the hell out of me in another.
I'm thankful for my physical self,
the good, the bad, and the ugly.
I have a little pooch on my belly that is apparently here to stay.
I have cellulite on my thighs that bothers the tar out of me.
My collagen stores have apparently left the building
and gravity has taken over.
But I run half marathons and triathlons too now.
My 20 year old self couldn't have done these things.
I love that I just don't give a crap anymore about the mean girls in life...
well maybe a little part of me wants their acceptance,
but thankfully the majority of me just wishes them well
{while secretly sending them telepathic messages to bite me}.
Mature I know.
You hit 40 and you see your friends getting sick and fighting for their lives.
You might even unfortunately bury a sweet friend.
You question your heavenly Father above about these things
and He puts it on your heart to hug your littles close
and be thankful for every day He graces you with.
With little ones
the days are long,
the years are so short.
I used to wish the days away
because I was so exhausted.
Now I'd give anything
{I think}
to have those baby days back.
I get it now.
That those days do end
and eventually the kids do sleep
and therefore so will you.
But you can never have that time back.
I wish I'd realized that then.
But here we are today.
In the middle of now.
Problem is...
I don't know where "I" am.
I think I'm somewhere between a mountain of mess
made by three growing boys
and a smile that's cracking jokes, trying to be funny
because she feels like she is the only one
who doesn't know
anything about anything
which road in life to take.
Do you ever get lost?
If so how do you find yourself?
I'll figure it out.
Right now I just don't know.
Uncertainty has always scared me.
But I'm better at facing my fears now.
42 and fearless...
that's how I'm choosing to roll.

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Smart Home

Have you seen HGTV's latest home giveaway?

It's their "smart home" located just outside Jacksonville, FL.
You know that I consider myself "technologically challenged."
I'm not one to oohhhh and ahhhhh
over all the technology bells and whistles they have.
Me...I go for the aesthetics.
I know.
And I'm ok with that.

While it may look kind of plain from the outside...

 once you see the inside
I think you'll be saying
why hello there...
I'm in it to win it too!

Here's a better view of the gallery wall in the entry way

You know whoever hung those pictures has OCD.

Takes one to know one.

That little doorway you see above leads you to this little alcove...

 that houses the powder room...

The aquamarine color continues into the family room
but with added pops of chartreuse and orange.

This living area opens right into the dining room.

I had to do a double take when I saw this picture
but quickly figured out that they hung curtains between these rooms
to create the feel of a separate dining room if the mood strikes

here's an up close of the table setting

In case you can't tell
those are oyster shells in the little urn above.
{I saw some little urns at hobby lobby...
I think I know what I'll be doing with all the shells
we collect next month in Savannah.}

On the other side of the dining room is the kitchen
I could totally get my cook on in here.

Right off the kitchen is the laundry room/mud room

This bright space could make you like laundry.
The little door above opens to storage...

and the answer to my dilemma
of keeping all the shoes out of the way!
I seriously need an area like this in our next house.

Ok, we've entertained, cooked, and cleaned.
Let's see where we're going to be sleeping...

{digging this mirror}
and of course the framed coral art

The master bath is nothing to sneeze at...

it's different -
with the bathtub inside the shower area
but like I always tell my boys
different is good.

and a rain shower...yes please.
In case you were wondering
the water closet is directly opposite the shower...
I'm ready to enter the contest.
How about you?

Here's where the boys will be sleeping if we win...

don't you love this little desk area?

{and the crab art}
They have their own separate bath

and I think they'd be happy here.
I'd switch the twin beds for two bunk problem.

If you want to visit us
here's where you'll be ensconced...
You'd have your privacy with your own bath
its upstairs right off of a little sitting area.
A total getaway.
Now that I think about it
THIS should be the master suite?

Either way
I'm ready to enter to win.
You can too...twice a day.
Click here to go to HGTV's
"smart home 2013" webpage.

Dream big or go home.

{all images via}

it's your choice


Wednesday, May 29, 2013

house beautiful

You may know the magazine House Beautiful
but did you know they have a "marketplace" at HSN.
Who knew, right?

Here are a few of my favorite things...
Safavieh Glazed Ceramic Table Lamp with Cotton Shade
Zig Zag Armless Chair - Navy and White
{also comes in gray}

Home Origin Bookcase
{reminds me of restoration hardware}
Batik Tufted Ottoman

Click here to see all of HB's picks.

blogger tutorial - DIY photoshop collage

In case you are technically challenged like I am
I thought I'd post this tutorial I found on the house of smiths
 on how to create a photoshop collage. 
One of these days
I hope this project creeps up to the top of my to-do list.

If you don't have photoshop you might try
It is a free online photo editor that even I
{aka mrs. technically challenged}
have used before.


Tuesday, May 28, 2013

color block

You know I love me some Wisteria.
I wish I could just move in to their catalog...
I love it all.
Lately I've been digging their wall art...
wisteria's ethereal painting
I'm going blue and green in the family room soon
{gotta get through the kitchen reno first though}
so this would be a nice addition.
How funny is it that I'm convinced
I could just buy a canvas and do this myself?
Cracks you up
 am I right?
Seriously though.
Look at this wall art...
wisteria's blue block wall art
You know you want to run out and buy some paint and canvas too.
Here's another for inspiration...
wisteria's blue shade wall art

My friend Tracy is a style forecaster.
She had this same idea years ago...
bought the canvases, taped off the lines, painted in different tints.
Tracy...I hope you don't think I'm a stalker
but I took this photo to show my sister. :)
Hopefully you'll allow me to take more photos next month.
{I'm telling you...her house is swoon worthy.}

Saturday, May 25, 2013

stars and stripes

I tried to convince my friends to have a party this weekend.
Sadly no takers.
And you know I have a strange fear of entertaining.
Yes, that was a goal of mine for the year to get over it.
Figure I have six more months to work on it :)
If someone you know IS having a party for Memorial Day weekend
then you might consider taking this "Stars and Stripes" pie with you.
I'm pretty sure it would be a hit and someone might even call you
"Martha" as in Stewart.
Thanks to all the men and women in our armed forces
who protect and serve our country.

Have a safe Memorial Day weekend.

Friday, May 24, 2013

should I or shouldn't I?

whack all my hair off?
its not that my hair is long...
just longer than its been in a couple of years.
its right about at a little bob like this...
but right at that stage where its driving me berserk.
here's what i'm thinking...
a long pixie cut...
 short short in the back
with the front long...
but longer than this ...
 but this is too much, right?
for a mom of three in her 40's?????
I think my husband would think I've lost my mind.
Hate to tell him
but that's already happened. :)
{about the haircut, not if I've lost my mind...
like I said, I already the answer to that one :)}
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